Prologue #2
I know we're not suppose to keep going with the whole introduction to ourselves assignment, but I feel like this could be a great opportunity to summarize EVERYTHING that has happened in my life up to now. I'm not doing it for extra credit or for someone's amusement, but for my own desire to organize my memories in chronological order, as if to have an autobiography that I can look back to and laugh at...
My memory started to develop when I was placed in the education system. Lucky for me, my education career started in a preschool, an english speaking preschool to be exact. I only remembered it as "PPP" but after a bit of research I even found the exact website of the place I went to, right here!: http://www.parentparticipationpreschool.org/ It's suppose to be a kind of daycare place where babies interact with other babies and get better at doing things you're expected to do as a baby. Looking back at it now, my parents probably wanted to make sure I was functional after all those dilemmas I came with. Anyhow, it wasn't the kind of education you normally think of. From what I can remember, we would play with some rip-off lego brand in the morning, have a snack, color some books, take a nap, play hide and seek, eat lunch, and then play some board games while we wait for our parents to pick us up. I'm kinda impressed that I can recall that so vividly.
There were a couple of friends I made there, some tagged along to elementary school while others disappeared. It was mostly a fun experience. With that said however, there's ONE single traumatic experience that lingers in the back of my head since one of those days. It was in the middle of a "class" period where we were handed printed blank copies of a cartoon hot air balloon. The instructions were easy, the teacher told us just once: "Okay kids, grab your favorite color and fill in the balloon! Don't forget the basket!". Within 5 minutes everyone was done, they all handed their colored balloons in. To my surprise, when I gave the paper to the teacher, she looked back with a confused expression and said "Andres, you still didn't finish coloring it" while she handed the paper back. I sat at the table while the other kids progressed to the next activity. "I... I didn't finish yet?" Is what ran through my thoughts as I analyzed the drawing while staring hard at that cheap copy paper.
Something clicked in my brain, I realized that there where little white spots between the crayon strokes in the drawing. Once I get every single inch in that balloon covered in red, I'll be able to have fun with everyone else! It took me a while, but I finally gave it back to the teacher proudly.
"Andres... this still isn't done" is all I got from her when I showed her the balloon for the second time. I was shocked. I ran out of ideas. I sat back in the table clueless as to what I should do now. I grabbed my crayon and kept coloring over the same area while I thought of what to do next. Nothing came. I watched my friends laughing and telling stories across the room while I was isolated trying to think of what I did wrong. Why were they able to color this with such ease? Why am I the only one who can't do it? Is there something wrong with me? I truly felt for the first time what it's like to be abandoned and helpless. Tear drops started to land on the drawing and it quickly became a watercolored piece.
Next thing I knew, I was crying out loud and the teacher's assistant took me out of the classroom. She escorted me to the water fountain to get hydrated after that waterfall of tears that flowed out of my eye sockets. A month passed by after that horrible event and my parents were handed all the projects that I made while I was at preschool. One of those projects was the air balloon. When I looked at it again with fresh eyes I could see where I went wrong...
I forgot to color the basket.
Somehow I think that part of my childhood subconsciously lead me to becoming an artist or something.